Dear Diary -01 -" I don't know"

A new series of personal conversations with my lovely readers

Hey everyone,

So, where's the Monday article, right? For those following me elsewhere, you know YouTube (and life in general!) has been keeping me busy. I'm trying to be more intentional with my energy this year, but I also didn't want to leave my 90-ish loyal readers here hanging. I see you!

I wanted this space to feel less like a formal article and more like a chat over coffee (or tea!). So, I'm starting a new series: "Dear Diary"—a place for my unfiltered thoughts.

Here's something I've been wrestling with: How do people in their 20s seem to have it all figured out? Niche nailed, monetized, the whole shebang. Or are they just really good at faking it? My 20s were a glorious mess (and honestly, some of my 30s too!). If I'd had even a tiny bit more self-awareness or prioritized self-care, things might have been different. Who knows?

The truth is, I still don't fully know what I want to "be" when I grow up (even now!). I'm a registered teacher with years of experience, but writing flows out of me, and people seem to enjoy it. I adore creating videos, but the production process is…a journey. And at the heart of it all, I'm passionate about empowering others to use creativity for self-care.

My last teaching job? Let's just say it took a toll. My body is still recovering from the stress. It was a well-paid job, though, which brings up another question: Are happiness and money always at odds? And does anyone actually know what their Ikigai is?

But I don't want to just dwell on the tough stuff. Here's what I'm doing: reading books that give me some answers, following my curiosity without judgment, focusing on what brings me joy, accepting this "in-between" phase, and reminding myself that no one truly has it all figured out.

P.S. This is a pretty vulnerable share, so I'd love to hear your thoughts—in the comments or privately. It'd mean the world to know I'm not alone in these feelings and that we can build a supportive community here. Let's cheer each other on!